Well I have come to a decision on having chemo. I think it is too much for my body to cope with. I am having enough trouble without the added troubles of chemotherapy. Having had the intravenous chemo on Friday I now am supposed to be on a course of chomo pills for nine days. So I started the pills on Friday night and continued with them on Saturday morning and Saturday evening and I felt absolutely awful. It was almost like my body was beginning to shut down. I could hardly walk. Jessie and Charlotte came round on Saturday and even then I could not rally but just sat there feeling awful. I suppose I didn't realise what was happening to me. In the evening Ian said it was probably the chemo.
So no more chemo. It was offered to me by the oncologist as something that "might make me feel better" and defininately not as as possible cure, so I don't feel like I am turning down a good thing. It is now Monday morning, and I am actually starting to feel a bit better. The pins and needles in my arm where the canula went in have nearly gone now. Yesterday (Sunday) I spent most of the day asleep. The other benefits of not being on chemo is that I don't have to stick to warm/hot food and drink which will be good.
So I am hoping I am going to feel a bit better today. At least I have got some energy to write a bit of this blog.
Dearest Sally - A brave decision and one you and Ian would have talked about before you even started. As you say it was offered as something 'that might make you feel better' and not a cure. Standard of life and being able to do things, however slowly is important. May Our Lord continue to offer arms of comfort and love. Susie <><
ReplyDeleteDearest Sally, If you couldn't even rally for your beloved Jessie and Charlotte, the chemo is obviously not having the hoped for effect. You have made the right decision
ReplyDeleteand hopefully you'll soon be enjoying your meals again. A xxx